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MY BOOK SEARCHING FOR HOME THE IMPACT OF WWII ON A HIDDEN CHILD IN MY MEMOIR, SEARCHING FOR HOME: THE IMPACT OF WWII ON A HIDDEN CHILD, YOU’LL FIND OUT ABOUT THE JOURNEY THAT LED ME TO BE WHO I AM TODAY. YOU WILL LEARN ABOUT MY STRUGGLES, MY ANGER, MY QUESTIONS, AND HOW I OVERCAME IT ALL. LATER I UNDERSTOOD THAT THIS JOURNEY WAS NOT ONLY MINE. LIKE ME MANY OTHER CHILDREN WERE GIVEN AWAY TO SURVIVE THOSE DARK DAYS - AND WITH THIS BOOK, I HOPE I GIVE A VOICE TO ALL WHO HAVE EVER FOUND THEMSELVES SEARCHING FOR HOME.
The war ends and Josje is returned to his parents. "Who are these people who call themselves my parents," he imagines. He is three years old and feels abandoned, confused and angry. He wants to return to his "real" parents who loved and sheltered him during the war. "My name is Pietje Dijkstra not Josje Gosler!" he states tearfully when goaded by his cousin. As a Jew and a Hidden Child, his innocence protected him as much as his Christian family. At seven months of age, for his own safety as well as his parents', he was given to a young nursing student from the Dutch resistance, and placed with the Dijkstra family in Wageningen. The impact of his first separation from his parents, may not be so easily ascertained, but when he is returned to them, his porcelain psyche is damaged and his closest companions are fear and distrust. Childhood wounds never fully heal and the impact of his early life is seen through the lens of an immigrant, as he migrates with his family to Israel and subsequently to the United States. This is a personal memoir of a child survivor that spans from WWII to the late 20th century. A story of a young boy, who becomes a man, ever wandering and struggling to find himself. His parents, emotionally gutted from their own wartime experiences, are barely able to care for themselves, let alone this young stranger.
﷯Editorial Reviews Seventy-five years after Auschwitz was liberated, we continue to come upon new stories, unfathomable lived experiences. Joseph Gosler's book is an important and moving addition to the history of the holocaust, giving us the perspective and trauma of a child reared in a Dutch family with a Dutch mother, only to learn after the war that he belongs to another family and mother. - Pearl Abraham, author of Animal Voices, Mineral Hum: Stories, American Taliban and The Seventh Beggar. As a child psychologist, I have not come across another book that better captures the psychological turmoil encountered by a Jewish child who is separated as an infant from his birth parents during World War II only to be given a new name and live with a non-Jewish family before being reunified years later. Gosler's road to psychological survival and recovery is unique and inspiring. I recommend this to professionals and laypersons alike. - Alec L. Miller, Clinical Professor of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences, Montefiore Medical Center/Albert Einstein College of Medicine Joseph Gosler's sensitive, affecting and beautifully written memoir belongs in the last chapter of the history of WWII. Yet, Searching for Home will be of equal importance in the annals of psychological studies on the subject of separating a small child from the only family he knows. The Holocaust initiates Joseph Gosler's early distress, but it is the aftermath that perpetuates a lifetime of dislocation and trauma. Born in the Netherlands in July 1942, the serial uprooting starts in early infancy, when he is hidden from the Nazis by a loving adoptive family, the Dijkstras. But his ordeal occurs when he is returned to his war-scarred parents after the liberation. A succession of displacements resumes with his parents, first in Israel and then in the U.S., establishing a long-lasting rift between Joe and his parents and a perennial simmering rage. Each relocation heightens his sense of not belonging anywhere and his constant fear that "life can be snuffed out or diminished in a nanosecond." Still, from an early age, Joe is determined not to be a victim. As he searches for a personal identity and a home, he is remarkably self-aware and brutally honest. It is this willingness to bare himself completely open that sets this memoir apart from many others. - Rachelle Goldstein, Co-director, Hidden Child Foundation/ADL This beautiful poignant memoir of a very young Jewish child hidden with a Christian family in Holland during the Holocaust powerfully draws the reader in, while giving important historical and psychological context to the lifelong emotional devastation experienced by many child Holocaust survivors. The author's inspiring journey of perseverance offers hope for redemption to others. - Israela Meyerstein, MSW, Author of Bridge to Healing: Finding Strength to Cope with Illness and Miracle Nation: Seventy Stories about the Spirit of Israel.
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" One evening in March 1943, a nursing student on a bicycle with a straw basket attached came to our house, bundled me in a blanket, placed me in the basket and peddled off into the darkness.

 

Much later in my life my parents recounted their feelings of being in a state of controlled fear and numbness. Full of remorse and yet relieved, they hoped I would be safe, although there was no guarantee that they would ever see me again."

 

Excerpt Chapter 2

THE DUTCH RESISTANCE Resistance to the Nazi occupation started slowly in Holland. The turning point for the Dutch was the roundup of 425 Jewish men over the weekend of February 22nd and 23rd, 1941. As a sign of protest the citizens of Amsterdam and other cities in the province of Noord-Holland staged a strike on February 25th and 26th. This sign of protest by the Dutch was called the February strike and is commemorated as such to this day. On July 14, 1942, there was an order from Germany to deport 40,000 Jews from Holland. After rounding up 700 Jews, the Germans threatened to send them to death camps unless 4,000 others turned themselves in. Still remembering the arrests of February 1941, the Jewish people were hesitant to respond. The threat ended up having the opposite effect. Very few reported voluntarily and 19,400 went into hiding. Some of the Dutch population actively involved themselves in passive resistance by hiding Jews from the Nazis. In total, 25,000-30,000 Jews managed to go into hiding assisted by the Dutch underground. Those Jews who went into hiding became totally dependent on their Dutch caregivers. Arizona Jewish Historical Society
﷯ “ORANJE” Dutch Resistance Armband. This armband is located in the collection of the Imperial War Museum, INS 8077.
“We didn’t know anything. We had to [find] foster parents, give them money [food] distribution cards, everything. July and August were holidays, so there were lots of students who helped, and transported, and got distribution cards. Then in September they went to study again. [Of those] who were left, we knew who we could trust and rely on. That same core group stayed together until the end.”
 HETTY DUTIHL VOUTRE’S RECOLLECTION OF RESCUING CHILDREN IN HOLLAND Arizona Jewish Historical Society
© 2022 Joe Gosler. All rights reserved. Website by Alex Lage - alexlage.com
MY BOOK SEARCHING FOR HOME THE IMPACT OF WWII ON A HIDDEN CHILD IN MY MEMOIR, SEARCHING FOR HOME: THE IMPACT OF WWII ON A HIDDEN CHILD, YOU’LL FIND OUT ABOUT THE JOURNEY THAT LED ME TO BE WHO I AM TODAY. YOU WILL LEARN ABOUT MY STRUGGLES, MY ANGER, MY QUESTIONS, AND HOW I OVERCAME IT ALL. LATER I UNDERSTOOD THAT THIS JOURNEY WAS NOT ONLY MINE. LIKE ME MANY OTHER CHILDREN WERE GIVEN AWAY TO SURVIVE THOSE DARK DAYS - AND WITH THIS BOOK, I HOPE I GIVE A VOICE TO ALL WHO HAVE EVER FOUND THEMSELVES SEARCHING FOR HOME.
The war ends and Josje is returned to his parents. "Who are these people who call themselves my parents," he imagines. He is three years old and feels abandoned, confused and angry. He wants to return to his "real" parents who loved and sheltered him during the war. "My name is Pietje Dijkstra not Josje Gosler!" he states tearfully when goaded by his cousin. As a Jew and a Hidden Child, his innocence protected him as much as his Christian family. At seven months of age, for his own safety as well as his parents', he was given to a young nursing student from the Dutch resistance, and placed with the Dijkstra family in Wageningen. The impact of his first separation from his parents, may not be so easily ascertained, but when he is returned to them, his porcelain psyche is damaged and his closest companions are fear and distrust. Childhood wounds never fully heal and the impact of his early life is seen through the lens of an immigrant, as he migrates with his family to Israel and subsequently to the United States. This is a personal memoir of a child survivor that spans from WWII to the late 20th century. A story of a young boy, who becomes a man, ever wandering and struggling to find himself. His parents, emotionally gutted from their own wartime experiences, are barely able to care for themselves, let alone this young stranger.
﷯Editorial Reviews Seventy-five years after Auschwitz was liberated, we continue to come upon new stories, unfathomable lived experiences. Joseph Gosler's book is an important and moving addition to the history of the holocaust, giving us the perspective and trauma of a child reared in a Dutch family with a Dutch mother, only to learn after the war that he belongs to another family and mother. - Pearl Abraham, author of Animal Voices, Mineral Hum: Stories, American Taliban and The Seventh Beggar. As a child psychologist, I have not come across another book that better captures the psychological turmoil encountered by a Jewish child who is separated as an infant from his birth parents during World War II only to be given a new name and live with a non-Jewish family before being reunified years later. Gosler's road to psychological survival and recovery is unique and inspiring. I recommend this to professionals and laypersons alike. - Alec L. Miller, Clinical Professor of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences, Montefiore Medical Center/Albert Einstein College of Medicine Joseph Gosler's sensitive, affecting and beautifully written memoir belongs in the last chapter of the history of WWII. Yet, Searching for Home will be of equal importance in the annals of psychological studies on the subject of separating a small child from the only family he knows. The Holocaust initiates Joseph Gosler's early distress, but it is the aftermath that perpetuates a lifetime of dislocation and trauma. Born in the Netherlands in July 1942, the serial uprooting starts in early infancy, when he is hidden from the Nazis by a loving adoptive family, the Dijkstras. But his ordeal occurs when he is returned to his war-scarred parents after the liberation. A succession of displacements resumes with his parents, first in Israel and then in the U.S., establishing a long-lasting rift between Joe and his parents and a perennial simmering rage. Each relocation heightens his sense of not belonging anywhere and his constant fear that "life can be snuffed out or diminished in a nanosecond." Still, from an early age, Joe is determined not to be a victim. As he searches for a personal identity and a home, he is remarkably self-aware and brutally honest. It is this willingness to bare himself completely open that sets this memoir apart from many others. - Rachelle Goldstein, Co-director, Hidden Child Foundation/ADL This beautiful poignant memoir of a very young Jewish child hidden with a Christian family in Holland during the Holocaust powerfully draws the reader in, while giving important historical and psychological context to the lifelong emotional devastation experienced by many child Holocaust survivors. The author's inspiring journey of perseverance offers hope for redemption to others. - Israela Meyerstein, MSW, Author of Bridge to Healing: Finding Strength to Cope with Illness and Miracle Nation: Seventy Stories about the Spirit of Israel.
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Resistance to the Nazi occupation started slowly in Holland. The turning point for the Dutch was the roundup of 425 Jewish men over the weekend of February 22nd and 23rd, 1941. As a sign of protest the citizens of Amsterdam and other cities in the province of Noord-Holland staged a strike on February 25th and 26th. This sign of protest by the Dutch was called the February strike and is commemorated as such to this day. On July 14, 1942, there was an order from Germany to deport 40,000 Jews from Holland. After rounding up 700 Jews, the Germans threatened to send them to death camps unless 4,000 others turned themselves in. Still remembering the arrests of February 1941, the Jewish people were hesitant to respond. The threat ended up having the opposite effect. Very few reported voluntarily and 19,400 went into hiding. Some of the Dutch population actively involved themselves in passive resistance by hiding Jews from the Nazis. In total, 25,000-30,000 Jews managed to go into hiding assisted by the Dutch underground. Those Jews who went into hiding became totally dependent on their Dutch caregivers. Arizona Jewish Historical Society ﷯ “ORANJE” Dutch Resistance Armband. This armband is located in the collection of the Imperial War Museum, INS 8077.
“We didn’t know anything. We had to [find] foster parents, give them money [food] distribution cards, everything. July and August were holidays, so there were lots of students who helped, and transported, and got distribution cards. Then in September they went to study again. [Of those] who were left, we knew who we could trust and rely on. That same core group stayed together until the end.”
 HETTY DUTIHL VOUTRE’S RECOLLECTION OF RESCUING CHILDREN IN HOLLAND Arizona Jewish Historical Society
© 2022 Joe Gosler. All rights reserved. Website by Alex Lage - alexlage.com
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MY BOOK SEARCHING FOR HOME THE IMPACT OF WWII ON A HIDDEN CHILD IN MY MEMOIR, SEARCHING FOR HOME: THE IMPACT OF WWII ON A HIDDEN CHILD, YOU’LL FIND OUT ABOUT THE JOURNEY THAT LED ME TO BE WHO I AM TODAY. YOU WILL LEARN ABOUT MY STRUGGLES, MY ANGER, MY QUESTIONS, AND HOW I OVERCAME IT ALL. LATER I UNDERSTOOD THAT THIS JOURNEY WAS NOT ONLY MINE. LIKE ME MANY OTHER CHILDREN WERE GIVEN AWAY TO SURVIVE THOSE DARK DAYS - AND WITH THIS BOOK, I HOPE I GIVE A VOICE TO ALL WHO HAVE EVER FOUND THEMSELVES SEARCHING FOR HOME.
The war ends and Josje is returned to his parents. "Who are these people who call themselves my parents," he imagines. He is three years old and feels abandoned, confused and angry. He wants to return to his "real" parents who loved and sheltered him during the war. "My name is Pietje Dijkstra not Josje Gosler!" he states tearfully when goaded by his cousin. As a Jew and a Hidden Child, his innocence protected him as much as his Christian family. At seven months of age, for his own safety as well as his parents', he was given to a young nursing student from the Dutch resistance, and placed with the Dijkstra family in Wageningen. The impact of his first separation from his parents, may not be so easily ascertained, but when he is returned to them, his porcelain psyche is damaged and his closest companions are fear and distrust. Childhood wounds never fully heal and the impact of his early life is seen through the lens of an immigrant, as he migrates with his family to Israel and subsequently to the United States. This is a personal memoir of a child survivor that spans from WWII to the late 20th century. A story of a young boy, who becomes a man, ever wandering and struggling to find himself. His parents, emotionally gutted from their own wartime experiences, are barely able to care for themselves, let alone this young stranger.
﷯Editorial Reviews Seventy-five years after Auschwitz was liberated, we continue to come upon new stories, unfathomable lived experiences. Joseph Gosler's book is an important and moving addition to the history of the holocaust, giving us the perspective and trauma of a child reared in a Dutch family with a Dutch mother, only to learn after the war that he belongs to another family and mother. - Pearl Abraham, author of Animal Voices, Mineral Hum: Stories, American Taliban and The Seventh Beggar. As a child psychologist, I have not come across another book that better captures the psychological turmoil encountered by a Jewish child who is separated as an infant from his birth parents during World War II only to be given a new name and live with a non-Jewish family before being reunified years later. Gosler's road to psychological survival and recovery is unique and inspiring. I recommend this to professionals and laypersons alike. - Alec L. Miller, Clinical Professor of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences, Montefiore Medical Center/Albert Einstein College of Medicine Joseph Gosler's sensitive, affecting and beautifully written memoir belongs in the last chapter of the history of WWII. Yet, Searching for Home will be of equal importance in the annals of psychological studies on the subject of separating a small child from the only family he knows. The Holocaust initiates Joseph Gosler's early distress, but it is the aftermath that perpetuates a lifetime of dislocation and trauma. Born in the Netherlands in July 1942, the serial uprooting starts in early infancy, when he is hidden from the Nazis by a loving adoptive family, the Dijkstras. But his ordeal occurs when he is returned to his war-scarred parents after the liberation. A succession of displacements resumes with his parents, first in Israel and then in the U.S., establishing a long-lasting rift between Joe and his parents and a perennial simmering rage. Each relocation heightens his sense of not belonging anywhere and his constant fear that "life can be snuffed out or diminished in a nanosecond." Still, from an early age, Joe is determined not to be a victim. As he searches for a personal identity and a home, he is remarkably self-aware and brutally honest. It is this willingness to bare himself completely open that sets this memoir apart from many others. - Rachelle Goldstein, Co-director, Hidden Child Foundation/ADL This beautiful poignant memoir of a very young Jewish child hidden with a Christian family in Holland during the Holocaust powerfully draws the reader in, while giving important historical and psychological context to the lifelong emotional devastation experienced by many child Holocaust survivors. The author's inspiring journey of perseverance offers hope for redemption to others. - Israela Meyerstein, MSW, Author of Bridge to Healing: Finding Strength to Cope with Illness and Miracle Nation: Seventy Stories about the Spirit of Israel.
AUDIOBOOK Available Soon
Click Here for Audio Sample
THE DUTCH RESISTANCE ﷯ “ORANJE” Dutch Resistance Armband. This armband is located in the collection of the Imperial War Museum, INS 8077. Resistance to the Nazi occupation started slowly in Holland. The turning point for the Dutch was the roundup of 425 Jewish men over the weekend of February 22nd and 23rd, 1941. As a sign of protest the citizens of Amsterdam and other cities in the province of Noord-Holland staged a strike on February 25th and 26th. This sign of protest by the Dutch was called the February strike and is commemorated as such to this day. On July 14, 1942, there was an order from Germany to deport 40,000 Jews from Holland. After rounding up 700 Jews, the Germans threatened to send them to death camps unless 4,000 others turned themselves in. Still remembering the arrests of February 1941, the Jewish people were hesitant to respond. The threat ended up having the opposite effect. Very few reported voluntarily and 19,400 went into hiding. Some of the Dutch population actively involved themselves in passive resistance by hiding Jews from the Nazis. In total, 25,000-30,000 Jews managed to go into hiding assisted by the Dutch underground. Those Jews who went into hiding became totally dependent on their Dutch caregivers. Arizona Jewish Historical Society
“We didn’t know anything. We had to [find] foster parents, give them money [food] distribution cards, everything. July and August were holidays, so there were lots of students who helped, and transported, and got distribution cards. Then in September they went to study again. [Of those] who were left, we knew who we could trust and rely on. That same core group stayed together until the end.”
 HETTY DUTIHL VOUTRE’S RECOLLECTION OF RESCUING CHILDREN IN HOLLAND Arizona Jewish Historical Society
© 2022 Joe Gosler. All rights reserved. Website by Alex Lage - alexlage.com